forgive me father, it's been way too frickin' long since my last post. and as i sit on the couch with my bare feet up on the coffee table and smile at the simple beauty of the tequila sunrise that i created, i realize that my attempt at brevity has already been thwarted. and friends are coming over, friends who actually requested this exotic concoction of tequila, orange juice and grenadine.
apparently the grenadine weighs more than the o.j. and tequila and sinks down languidly to the bottom of the glass then does a slow-motion lava lamp dance back up causing the "sunrise" effect. nonetheless, i'm ecstatic not only because of the resulting buzz but because i can't recall ever making one before. and doing something i've never done before, no matter how seemingly trite, turns me on.
so here i go. five minutes or less to say something meaningful and positive. how 'bout this...today i did some karmic payback. out of respect for the feelings of some people close to me i will abstain from details but to summarize, it's never too late to try and do the right thing.
whatever one defines right as. for me it's doing what i say i'm going to do, not doing what i say i'm not going to do and putting my energy into the things and people i've chosen to spend my life with. i used to have this distorted view that i was unique in that as long as i didn't tell others what i was doing then it wouldn't hurt them. but consequently it hurt me. because lying and sneaking and hiding are not fun. well, they're fun for a little while, they provide that adolescent adrenaline rush. but come to find out honesty is pretty damn cool. it gives you extra time you used to use covering up, hiding, sneaking etc.
today i got rid of things that reminded me of the past. the past when i wasn't being true to myself or my loved ones. it feels good. 'cuz now i have more space available for bigger and better things to come into my life.
yes, i believe in karma. some call it the golden rule or say what comes around goes around. what we sow we shall reap.
if there was a karma a.t.m. i'd check my balance today and i bet for the first time in a long time it wouldn't be negative. and that feels very positive indeed.
